WOW Vacation is half over. I can not believe how fast its gone. Part of me cant wait to get back to work but there is also a part of me that dose not want to. I have been enjoying all the down time but for sure some things will be changing when I do get back to work. One of the first things is no more 20 hour work days. I think I am going to just put in normal hours. If it makes it then great if not then I dont mind kicking DRN back to a hobby level for as long as I can. I think its best to do it that way anyway. Its just gotten way to hard to keep up with the way I have been doing it.

Well it started out being lazy but got busy very fast. After cleaning up the office a bit the kids seemed to all get started at the same time. Half the day was spent cleaning up the house and feeding three hungry kids. The other half has been spent doing a lot of thinking. I cant help but to want to take some more time off, more than just a week. There are so many things I have gotten done in the past two days its amazing, the best of which though is mental healing, just trying to relax and get my mind focused again and that’s been awesome but now with my mind focusing it makes me feel like taking more time off to consider the future of DRN. Its so easy to get caught up in the day to day stuff that you miss a lot of the big picture, I have been able to ask myself questions like why did I start this? Where did I want or expect it to go? Have I held true to myself and the plan? I was kind of surprised in some of the answers to those. I know I should probably be nice and tell the answers now but I will not, I will save those for when everything is laid out there. I think all in all DRN will always be a part of the reptile world but to what extent has not been decided yet. I think the daily videos will probably be decreasing if not stopping all together.

I think the easiest way to put it is that its been a business venture but I am thinking there is not a market for what it has become. Because there is no market for it the revenue has been very small and sporadic at best. That being said it may just be time to move on to the next idea and kick DRN back down to the hobby level that it was nearly a year ago. Its a very tough call because not only the following and work that has been involved to obtain it but because I am so scared to let people down. Because of this I continue to push on from the fear of letting people down even though I dont feel the same about what I am doing. Even that being said I find myself being more and more NOT myself as time moves on and I think that has been a very unhealthy thing. There was once a time when I did not hesitate to tell someone what I thought or how I felt about them but I fond myself not doing that now in fear of making a community I love revolt agents me and everything I have or ever will do. I feel that a good share of the friends I have made during this adventure would have nothing to do with me IF they knew the REAL me. I guess that about all I had to say. I am going to continue my vacation and continue my thinking for what direction I will go on the 3rd when I come back. I am only going to log on long enough to post the blog entry then wont be back on the DRN facebook account until vacation is over so any comments, concerns or questions are probably best left in reply here on the new blog I set up on the DRN website. No matter what direction I go I will never forget the ride nor will I forget the friends I have made along the way. I hope everyone has a super awesome new years.

So, I am just finishing my first full day of vacation but it hasn’t really been a vacation persay, My vacation was from DRN and the videos I have been making but I have been working hard on other stuff. I spent a little time cleaning up the office this morning then spent most of the day out in the shop, getting it all cleaned and organized. Its kind of funny. I dont remember it looking so good since the day my father and I finished building it. It is kinda nice now to have so much room, the work benches have been covered with crap for what feels like a year now but now they are all cleared off and I can actually work on them. This will prove to be very nice as I will be able to work a lot more efficiently in the cleaner area I will just have to make sure I keep it up and start putting stuff away when I am done with it, a practice I will probably never really get down. The strangest part of vacation however has been the lack of anything to do. I dont think I got out of bed until 8AM today and now under normal circumstances my day would be half over but I sit here instead staring at the computer not knowing what to do or how to do it lol. Well I guess with that being said there is a new Intervention on in about 15 minutes so I am going to go watch it.